Wow it has been such a long time since I have been around DS. And here I am, on the final hours of 2013 writing down my feelings.
I am not sure how to feel about this year. I would say 2012 was way better to me, but 2013 had some positive aspects and I did improve a lot.
I made some friends, I met new people, I pushed myself out of the house, I travelled, I have been to new countries, I did a lot of things I would not be able before. But my year wasn't fullfilling anywyay..
I recently lost my job again, I am still in love and unable to move on from a guy who doesn't love me and only uses me for sex.. my relationship with my grandmother only gets worse, and I get real anger attacks where I just want to choke her to death or put an axe down her throat..
I am feeling super lonely and frustrated.. my year was not like I expected. I need to make 2014 better. I don't think the year is the one who has to become better, I think I am the one who needs to be better. I need to gain courage and make a change in my life.
In 2014 I want to get a job, I want to move out and have my own space. I want to have friends. I want to fall in love and, more important than falling in love, I want someone to LOVE ME.
Happy 2014 my friends :)
I am not sure how to feel about this year. I would say 2012 was way better to me, but 2013 had some positive aspects and I did improve a lot.
I made some friends, I met new people, I pushed myself out of the house, I travelled, I have been to new countries, I did a lot of things I would not be able before. But my year wasn't fullfilling anywyay..
I recently lost my job again, I am still in love and unable to move on from a guy who doesn't love me and only uses me for sex.. my relationship with my grandmother only gets worse, and I get real anger attacks where I just want to choke her to death or put an axe down her throat..
I am feeling super lonely and frustrated.. my year was not like I expected. I need to make 2014 better. I don't think the year is the one who has to become better, I think I am the one who needs to be better. I need to gain courage and make a change in my life.
In 2014 I want to get a job, I want to move out and have my own space. I want to have friends. I want to fall in love and, more important than falling in love, I want someone to LOVE ME.
Happy 2014 my friends :)
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It sounds like you did a lot of progress in 2013-give yourself credit my friend!
I used to think all I needed was to fall in love with a man that loved me-that was a requirement to be happy...
At around age 32 I earned I could be happy on my own. I realized the right person would not come my way until I learned to love myself and be happy on my own first.
I hope in 2014 you will learn to love YOU first. Trust me, everything else will fall into place once you do.
Best wishes!