So Far
Things have gone... pretty well. I thought I'd just give a bit of an update about what's been happening to me in life in case anyone still is looking at this... If you had looked at my last update, you might not feel too good about where I am. Long story short: I was put in hospital shortly after writing that and I lived there for about 6 weeks. When I got out, I struggled a bit at first and cut, but recently I've been doing really good.
I'm at a boarding school right now which is about to end. That's not a good thing, because I'm having an amazing time at my school. I live with 41 other juniors (12 boys and 29 girls) and I love each of them. Some get under my skin, but I love them all. We're on break right now and all anyone's doing is yelling at each other over text or facebook about how much we want to be back at school. I haven't cut in 107 days and I haven't self harmed in over a month. I haven't been restricting and although I've been fighting the urges, I haven't given in.
I have a confession: I'm in love. I never knew what it meant to be in love, but I think I am now. There's a boy at my semester who I have fallen for. He's not like the other boys I've fallen for. He actually loves me back. We've been together for about two and a half months now and I feel like he really loves me. He was the first one to say that he loves me and I actually thought about it for about a month after he said it before I said it back. I feel like our relationship is really healthy. It'll be strange to see what happens when we both go back home as he lives half way across the country from me, but for now, we're just enjoying ourselves.
I've met another girl from my school who has been to hospital, so I know I always have someone there for me. I'm happy right now. I'm safe. It's a new thing, and I like it. I don't want to get bad again, so I'm making sure that I don't. I'm going to stay strong. I don't want to get bad again. I won't let myself.
I'm at a boarding school right now which is about to end. That's not a good thing, because I'm having an amazing time at my school. I live with 41 other juniors (12 boys and 29 girls) and I love each of them. Some get under my skin, but I love them all. We're on break right now and all anyone's doing is yelling at each other over text or facebook about how much we want to be back at school. I haven't cut in 107 days and I haven't self harmed in over a month. I haven't been restricting and although I've been fighting the urges, I haven't given in.
I have a confession: I'm in love. I never knew what it meant to be in love, but I think I am now. There's a boy at my semester who I have fallen for. He's not like the other boys I've fallen for. He actually loves me back. We've been together for about two and a half months now and I feel like he really loves me. He was the first one to say that he loves me and I actually thought about it for about a month after he said it before I said it back. I feel like our relationship is really healthy. It'll be strange to see what happens when we both go back home as he lives half way across the country from me, but for now, we're just enjoying ourselves.
I've met another girl from my school who has been to hospital, so I know I always have someone there for me. I'm happy right now. I'm safe. It's a new thing, and I like it. I don't want to get bad again, so I'm making sure that I don't. I'm going to stay strong. I don't want to get bad again. I won't let myself.
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