here we go again

I have been gone so long I no longer know anyone here.  I guess that is why I deleted my friends, even though they were good people. So many things have improved, and I am moving forward in so many areas of my life, but my big secret is that over the past few months my drinking has gotten out of control.  Not so much that anyone knows, but I know.  For me this is the next big hurdle, and while it was in control for a while, it is still pulling me down.  I want, no, need to let it go, but before I was an abuser, now I am an addict. There is a whole lot more anonymity here than a few years ago, so a new avatar, no more family pictures.