Well there have been a few reasons for no posts in a while.  Given that I am trying to ingrain the habit of being self disciplined about making the effort to post, I guess I have been lazy.  I have been trying to pay attention to the choises I make, and it seems I choose the easy path.  Good grief, I judge myself harshly.  So much intellecualization, no help, really.  I can't think tonight.  There is so much I could write about my wife and my work that really bothers me, but where it counts, in how I relate to it, how I deal with it, I feel so lost tonight.