Well I just did something and deleted my entire entry.  Hmm.   I feel like the crushing fatigue is lifting a bit. With less effort, I seem to be getting more done at work, and have been getting some good feedback.  I'm almost reluctant to come out and say it because right now I'm pretty concious of how fragile my state of mind is.  I'm not up for getting really exuberent about life and having it flushed down the toilet if things deteriorate.  Even though my contact with people here has been just text on a screen, I feel the connection and support more deeply than I anticipated.  Thank you to all who have invested the time and energy to share with me.My wife had a crappy day at work that left her feeling really bad about herself (scary for both of us in view of her past mental health issues).  We take turns beeing screwed up--lol.  I just listened to her feelings, and she said I was sweet. It meant so much.  I hope this passes quickly for her though.  If not and it escalates, in the past she demands I agree with the reasons she feels badly, and sometimes I cannot truthfully agree 100%, which puts me in the enemy camp even if I agree 90%.  We are going away this weekend to celebrate our 29th year of marraige.  I think it will be a good time for her--doing the kind of things she likes.