hey Dad, just feel the need to talk to you...sometimes I feel so darn selfish for wanting you here...I would not have wanted you to suffer any more. You never complained, but you should of!! What I really want is to be able to ring you up like before, you know when we would just dribble on for a while, there was never anything really to tell, just us yapping about any little thing that came up. Its one of those days Dad, I just want to yap with you for a while, just shoot the breeze, ...just spend some me and Dad time....Its annoying, I can't have it!!!! It hurts that I can't have it, its not fair!!!!!!!!!!