Well Dad, i am slowly getting myself together today.

doing that memorial for you is helping me...... you should be remembered, you should be celebrated, your life was filled with so many wonderful things, you did so much for people..... at least with this site I can give you the credit you should have!!!!!!

I have found out things about you that I never knew!!!!!!!!  

You did great things and never did you have the spotlight on you. It was the same when you were in business, you were the silent partner, never wanting anyone to know how cleaver you were, never taking the credit. The good thing is I know!!  I can walk the city and see the building you designed and built. I will be going back to that town you designed next month,   and I will be putting flowers in the centre of town in your memory.

So you see Dad, even thoough you got your wish and left without fanfare and fuss, there will be fanfare and fuss...because I am going to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can hear you mumbling..... I know you wanted to keep your passing quiet, so that Mum would not have to have all past business associates etc bothering her, but by doing this I am helping myself get used to life without you, and I'm celebrating your life, and it gives me a place to go to when I want to think about you ...  we don't have a grave site, a memorial wall, you didn't want that, your ashes will be scattered with Mums at the place you both chose. Until then I need to do this, and have a place to go to ....... so please don't be cross with me, just do as you always did when I just had to do something...... give me a hug and tell me its okay...