Sometimes I really wonder if it is all worth it. Guess its just lucky I'm a subborn mug at times like this.I will get through today, I will wake up tomorrow and it will somehow be better, or at least different from today. Who knows Dad, maybe tomorrow the pain of losing you will be dulled a little. Booked the flights to go and visit Mum, that will be a difficult time, wedding anniversary without you there Dad.  With a bit of luck we will be busy enough that the day will pass with just a few tears. Send me a sign, do something to let me know if I am doing everything right, or at least some of it right.