Today is the day I stop forever waiting for any sort of emotional support from you A and J.You would think that over the years I would of accepted that when something happens that requires a little or a lot of support I would of  given up looking towards you both, as you never seem to be able to support, lend a shoulder, just be there for me. You have no trouble supporting each other, but when it comes to me, I'm on the outer. I'm not sure why that is, and I know from experience that asking you is a waste of time as you never can come up with anything other than, "but I am here for you". !!!!!!!!!!!!The truth is your not, either of you, you never have been. Fifteen years ago I came to you J for a bit of support and at least a shoulder to cry on, but you were not interested, didn't want to know, didn't have the time, didn't want to complicate your life. So back then I did it on my own, and managed to get through it with minimum emotional scars. Same with you A, that same problem I had fifteen years ago, you only wanted to know when it was okay, and all the messy problems were over. Well, today, I no longer look towards either of you as a brother and sister, you are people i have know all my life, people that  I see sometimes if I am over your way, but you are not people that I choose to share my life with. I choose not to look to you for help or support, I choose to leave you on my Christmas card list only because I will not be rude and remove you from it. I won't sink to your selfish levels, I will continue to support and help in any way Mum, but please don't bother calling on me when you have troubles, because you will get what you have always given me.....NOTHING!I guess that this seems silly to have to write this out, but when Dad got sick, and we found out he had only weeks to live, I expected that you, as my brother and sister, would of been there, if not to support me, to support Mum. You didn't!!!!Now, when I feel the need to call you about anything, I will come and read this, to remind me of why i would be wasting the phone call.