Today is one of those nothing days, just that hollow feeling that something is missing.I sometimes wonder if life will ever hold any pleasures again. I'm sure in time it will, but right now I am sick of saying the right thing when people ask how I am, I'm sick of the false smile I have to walk around with. People should not ask 'how are you' if they don't want to hear the truth! I am crappy, bad tempered, lost, frightened, ....... I have lost someone that means so much to me, how the heck do they think I am!!!!!Just to cap it off, Mum has a tumor under her ear, non operable, so it the waiting game again.