cant believe how fast i can fall... Dave guy hadnt called for a couple days, so i called him monday nite. No answer. Left a message, no response. I went to bed thinking "move on, not for you."Yesterday I was outisde puttin up christmas lites and my phone rings. It was dave guy.... so happy, but trying to play it cool I answered. He did try to call me sunday. It went straight to voicemail. He thought I could still see it on caller id... Nextel isnt that kind. He asked me to havea  drink. We got together at 7. I told him flat out... I knew he would be the one to heartbreak me. He was shocked... and a little wierded. I just explained that (with the exception of cop guy) I am usually the one who is not impressed. But, with him, I am impressed. He asked me what all of this meant. I said I am going to enjoy it while it lasts, lol. And I am. Who cares where it goes. Eventually I do see myself watching old episodes of Gilmore Girls eating pint upon pint of Ben and Jerrys crying over him. But life is pain... as is the dating game. And while I have found plenty of men who are nuts... might not dump me, but have their own set of screwy problems, I am gonna hang on to this one. I cant think of one reason why not.We stayed out till after two. It was hard to leave the bar even tho I was fallin asleep... I think what I like most about him is he told me he is willing to work to get me.... I will enjoy the chase. now how long can I hold out? lol. i feel bad. I probably should leave DS and put all these things in a journal file on my own computer. I obviously am not in need of support. At least at the time. I have been so good... Even the anxiety of my financial difficulties has yet to hit me. I am hemorraging money. Yet my chin is up high. A smile remains on my face. It could be worse. I feel selfish. But happy.