so sad. I just got off with cop guy. I never saw this side before. He was nearly in tears. Ever hear tears thru type? I have. He is so lost. He is so sad. Here I am revelling in my solitude... downloadin music my husband would hate... eating garlic like its goin out of style. And he is sad because he has noone. He feels he will never have 'it'. I had 'it' and hated every minute of 'it'. i tried to be a friend. I think I made it worse. He went to bed at 11 pm. he works nites so I spose thats a bit early. He has no friedns here. He moved here for the skank he was about to marry who cheated on him. I feel so bad for him. I ama little teary for him. Maybe a lil guilty. I am having the time fo my life flirting with him and any other boy who will listen... never realizing that these men have been waiting for a real relationship. i am simply wasting their time. I emailed him. I apologized and told him a few golden nuggets that had made me finally say... forget it... life is not worth living miserable. in particular... from one of need's inspiring messages... "you may not know what you had till it's gone; but you never know what will be till it comes." I also mailed him some song lyrics. WELL.... U knew that would happen...Gomez, see the worldDay to dayWhere do you want to be?cose now you're trying to pick a fightWith everyone you meetYou seem like a soldierWho's lost his composureYou're wounded and playing a waiting gameIn no-man's land no-one's to blameSee the worldFind an old fashioned girlAnd when all's been said and doneIt's the things that are given, not wonAre the things that you wantEmpty handed, surrounded by a senseless sceneWith nothing of significanceBesides a shadow of a dreamYou sound like an old jokeYou're worn-out, a bit brokeAn' askin me time and time againWhen the answer's still the sameSee the worldFind an old fashioned girlAnd when all's been said and doneIt's the things that are given, not wonAre the things that you wantYou've got a chance to put things rightSo how's it going to be?Lay down your arms nowAnd put us beyond doubtSo reach out it's not too far awayDon't mess around now, don't delaySee the worldFind an old fashioned girlAnd when all's been said and doneIt's the things that are given, not wonAre the things that you wanti shall pray for him. I pray for me too. I dont wanna hurt anyone now... I shouldnt pass on that pain that I felt.
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Warning, warning, warning. Danger! Don\'t get sucked into this kind of thing. Take detour! Stay away! didn\'t you say you felt something like this for first husband? You\'re not looking for someone to \"help\". You\'re looking for a partner in a good and healthy life. Watch out!!!
oh dont worry... I am not finding this a reason to get serious with him. maybe more of a reason not to. I think we are better suited as friends.. Ya know that whole \"God sends people into our lives\" thing. I probably need to hear what he has to say as much as he needs to hear what I have to say. I just want to convince him not to settle. He was very blunt with me and said he liked me, but he didnt see a future... So my query to him, Why pursue me...? I think he is ready to marry the next person who looks at him and that is scary. He will be just like me in 6 years. I know I shouldnt want to help. But my imroved mood and rising self esteem makes me want to spread the cheer ya know? I hope I still see him tonite. Mainly to make sure he is ok. Talk to him a lil more. Let him know that there is life beyond being married... I actually may suggest he move back to his family a few states away. I think he needs familiar people in his life. He really has no friends or family here. I dunno. Just have no fear. I think it is a good thing all this came up last nite... I had a dream we were old and good friends. Jet skiing in the Atlantic. not sure where that part came from. lol.
OK, just take care of yourself.
You heard HIS side of the story dear. Tears are so amazing when you really cannot see the others face. My ex could cry like a baby at the drop of the hat over the phone the whole time grinning like an idiot. I am sorry to sound so cyncial but that is the way I am, especially of those guys who use you at their convencience and then when you wise up or change your mind or whatever they start the bawlbaby act. Sorry. Enjoy YOUR freedom, do what feels good to you, do not worry about anyone else except those you love and love you back. Date, flirt, work, enjoy yourself. You are sooooooooo young, makes me laugh the way you make it sound like you are 80 years old or something. Skiing sounds good, especially the after ski part. I could do that easy. Your cop guy sounds like he could use a trip to the therapist, if he is that emotionally messed up he needs some help...help from someone who knows what to do...we cannot save the world Sparky dear. Believe me, I have tried, gave up...well except for a few DS friends...but thats what this is for right????? Take it easy...lorelei