thank u so much, Timbuktu. You always make me feel so much better. I have been giving this one a lot of thought. i actaully told cop guy he is a head scratcher. He is a dr Jekyll/mr hyde type. One day he is attentative and complimentary and I think thats why he caught my attention right away. But other days he is unconcerned and cold. This bothers me, so why do I feed from it. My theory? My stbx worshipped me. From the first date he never left my side. He was the most amazing man ever. I didnt like him very much. In fact, he annoyed me. I wished he would go away and when I talked about going away to school he said he would move with me. I ended up not breaking up with him because I never wanted to be in the business of breaking hearts. And for a while I was glad cus I did end up loving him. So onto now....? I think I like the somewhat safe feeling from cop guy. I dont think he is falling for me in the slightest. I feel like I have to work for it. And I am not working for it. But he gives me that "im a girl, I need attention so tell me I am pretty" nonsense. And I like to hear it. I dont know. It doesnt make a lot of sense. Sometimes it would be nice if Freaud could rise from the dead and take me on as a full time project. I would love to understand myself.Anways... we talked on the phone last nite and we argued. He is a passionate fighter. When I told him he was a head scratcher he wasnt surprised. He said "I know. I will probably never get married." He still wants to take me out saturday. I dont know if I can say no.  I think I like his uneveness. At least I know he will leave my side when I say I will be going. And I am still on the hunt for prince Charming, of course. However I am not in a significant hurry. In fact I hope it takes a good while. I am liking what I thought would be cold, lonely, sad nites. Turns out I can be a friend to myself. Chef Guy is chatty. Rock Band guy wants to have a drink on Saturday. Computer guy is mad cus I only want to casual date for now (very clingy I think thats why I lashed out at him.) ANd the new one... I can only name Ticklefetish guy. he is so full of himself i can't imagine he has much time to date on his hands. But he found out I am ticklish so.... things are right with the world. I feel much better today and the weekend approaching means two possible dates. woohoo.Hi - Hi! We're your Weather Girls - Ah-huh -And have we got news for you - You better listen!Get ready, all you lonely girlsand leave those umbrellas at home. - Alright! -Humidity is rising - Barometer's getting lowAccording to all sources, the street's the place to goCause tonight for the first timeJust about half-past tenFor the first time in historyIt's gonna start raining men.It's Raining Men! Hallelujah! - It's Raining Men! Amen!I'm gonna go out to run and let myself getAbsolutely soaking wet!It's Raining Men! Hallelujah!It's Raining Men! Every Specimen!Tall, blonde, dark and leanRough and tough and strong and meanGod bless Mother Nature, she's a single woman tooShe took off to heaven and she did what she had to doShe taught every angel to rearrange the skySo that each and every woman could find her perfect guyIt's Raining Men! Hallelujah! - It's Raining Men! Amen!It's Raining Men! Hallelujah!It's Raining Men! Ame---------nnnn!I feel stormy weather / Moving in about to beginHear the thunder / Don't you lose your headRip off the roof and stay in bedGod bless Mother Nature, she's a single woman tooShe took off to heaven and she did what she had to doShe taught every angel to rearrange the skySo that each and every woman could find her perfect guyIt's Raining Men! Yeah!Humidity is rising - Barometer's getting lowAccording to all sources, the street's the place to goCause tonight for the first timeJust about half-past tenFor the first time in historyIt's gonna start raining men.It's Raining Men! Hallelujah! - It's Raining Men! Amen!It's Raining Men! Hallelujah! - It's Raining Men!