pimp sparky's in the house.....lol. So computer guy asked me to olive garden. i am sorry. No matter what diet I am on I brake for garlic breadsticks. he is not attractive to me. i dont know how to tell him this. He is probably one of the nicest guys I have met and he is very stable. Good job, house. He bought dinner. Wow, ok so that is really new. he is also a good kisser and affectionate. Which was nice. I just didnt feel anything. But I like the idea of dating around. I want to find all of the things I like and dont like. I should make a list. like one of Rory's pro/con lists. I love gilmore girls. Finished season 1 again today. I love my marathons. I dont have to pay attention anymore. I know them by heart. My ex, however, was able to ruin a good nite from 800 miles away. I checked my mail tonite when I got home. three letters. I cried. talked to cop guy earlier and he told me to call him tonite. I left him a message. Really hopin he'd call back cus he has a standing offer for a hug whenever needed and he is working tonite so he is close by.ah well.... This Lisa Loeb song goes way back to one of my first break ups... Jerry... the first boy i ever really kissed. But I like it for my emotions right now. "How"I didn't come this far for you to make this hard for me. And now you want to ask me "how"? It's like - how does your heart beat, and why do you breathe? How does your heart beat, and why do you breathe? Why did you come here? You weren't invited. You were on the outside - Stay on the outside. And now you want to ask me "why"? It's like - why does your heart beat, and how do you cry? How does your heart beat? And there are some things that I'd like to figure out. There are some things that I can do without - Like you, and your letters that go on forever, And you, and the people that were never friends. With all the things that you could be, You never could learn how to be me. And now you want to ask me "how"? It's like - how does your heart beat, and why do you breathe? How does your heart beat, and why do you breathe?