so my morals and my careful demeanor have gone out the window. I feel very free. I am certainly acting it. I have been talking to the cop guy. A lot. mostly online. My sister felt really comfortable about me getting to know him. "why not?" she asked. She felt he wouldnt risk his job for some girl who lives in his precinct. She also felt it would be noce to have someone on the lookout for me. And most of all she just wants me to have a little fun. I was suprised. There has always been a jealousy thing between her and I. I suppose now we are in the same boat, it no longer applies. So cop guy stops by from time to time on shift. I have been out with friends, mostly. Haunted houses are a yearly tradition. And a dinner with an old friend. After that dinner, last nite, however. I said f%^& it. I called cop guy. I asked if he was up for a drink. He was. I felt guilty for a moment. I even got that really sick feeling in my stomach when I pulled into the parking lot. But he hugged me and we talked. He was carded and I saw the badge. ok, so ladies... this whole guy in a uniform thing... I never got this before. But, he... although not the most attractive man... looks hot. And in civilian clothes when the badge unfolded from the wallet. I got all wierd. Granted he is no soul mate. It was nice to talk to somone who didnt make me feel like a loser. So... as we went outside... the temp had dropped. My hoodie was not keepin me so warm and he just kept yammering... and I was shivering.... so (seriously what is wrong withme?) I said "kiss me, or I am gettin back in my car." he kissed me. And it was goooood. I am going to hell LOL. But my rebound guy is proving to be a lot of fun. He is complimentary and doesnt mind discussing my daily deals... divorce papers, division of stuff, etc. I am not used to somone who gives a crap about my day, or what I look like. apparantly I am hot. nice to know, eh? He saw me online today and wants to see me again. Its nice. everything is so new and exciting. My friend was all cautious... telling me to take it easy, the first guy after a breakup, no good.... I just dont want to limit myself anymore. I have been sooo careful for sooo long. Stepping on eggshells to protect my pathetic marriage... trying to not start arguments and ignore faults. I wanna live for me. It feels bad... in a way. But bad feels good. make any sense?Did I mention the irony of cop guy? My STBX got pulled over constantly by my towns police. Blowing stop signs... Speeding. Basically I am dating my husbands arch nemesis. Maybe that is the excitement.On the downside, STBX, called about 10 times yesterday, 3 messages in tears demanding I call him back. After makin out with cop guy, I got home and got the last message. Luckily it was an apology for harassin me like that. I told him today I cant be friends with someone who treats me like that. He isnt doing well. I am. My how the winds have changed. So while Britney Spears has her issues, and, well, I dont have a high level of appreciation for her music, I heard this earlier... and I thought. Oh Hell Yeah. It is a lil toxic....Baby, can’t you seeI’m callingA guy like youShould wear a warningIt’s dangerousI’m fallin’There’s no escapeI can’t hideI need a hitBaby, give me itYou’re dangerousI’m lovin’ itToo highCan’t come downLosing my headSpinning ‘round and ‘roundDo you feel me nowWith a taste of your lipsI’m on a rideYou’re toxicI’m slipping underWith a taste of poison paradiseI’m addicted to youDon’t you know that you’re toxicAnd I love what you doDon’t you know that you’re toxicIt’s getting lateTo give it upI took a sipFrom my devil cupSlowlyIt’s taking over meToo highCan’t come downIt’s in the airAnd it’s all aroundCan you feel me nowDon’t you know that you’re toxicTaste of my lips and having funWith a taste of your lipsI’m on a rideYou’re toxicI’m slipping underWith a taste of poison paradiseI’m addicted to youDon’t you know that you’re toxicAnd I love what you doDon’t you know that you’re toxicI’m intoxicated nowI think you’ll love it nowI think I’m ready nowI think I’m ready nowI’m intoxicated nowI think you’ll love it nowI think I’m ready now
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Oh Sparky, what on earth is bad about feeling good? Maybe you\'re just not used to it. GET USED TO IT! That way at least I can live vicariously through you, you hot girl you! I\'m smiling from ear to ear. I can\'t tell you how happy it makes me to see you come through this thing so well and so fast. Enjoy!
LOL here comes the voice of caution. You can have fun but be careful too. LOl funny about your stbx, sounds like poor ole ed used to. Had to love the croc tears and the fake out self righteousness anger. Funny isn\'t it? Go have your fun, but please use a bit of caution. I just do not want to see you get hurt, or worse yet have this guy fall all over for you and then not take it well if a break comes. Cops can be the worst when it comes to that, oh geeze been watching too much Nancy Grace and ontherecord with Greta stuff. Oh well shit, I came on here to remove my daughters pic as her b/f broke up with her AGAIN!!! This makes the 2nd time, he asks her to move in with him, she says yes, it gets to the wire and he breaks it off...this time he told her his Momma made him realize it would not be a good idea. The light dawns!!! A MOMMAS boy, lordy lordy just what that girl does not need. Poor ole ed was a mommas boy. Anyway, she does not seem too broken up over it, she and a g/f went club hopping and to a concert complete with mosh-pitting and then she went up the hill to see her brother and sister in law(Darla). Darla did her nails for her, she is taking the course at the beauty college and is now up for real finger practice. I will wait till she gets to complete sets, right now she is at \"tips\". I need mine done bad, all the others are off now but one damn thumbnail and it is glued on like cement. I want them done before my carpral surgery, I am gonna have her put T H I S 1 on the R hand so they don\'t make a mistake. Take care, have fun and I do mean that...hugs...lorelei
lol. your so funny. Sorry bout ure daughter.
But I love the nails... T H I S 1 is hysterical.