Good weekend all in all. My girlfriend (his best friends wife) is still friends. She asked if we were still on for haunted housing, a yearly tradition. Of course I am. I havent heard hide nor hare from my family. Which is weird cus my mom is quick to spread info. My poor sister... everytime she meets a new man... within days she is getting calls from long lost aunts asking when the wedding date is set for. LOL. I have been holding together. I am planning to drive to Mich for the time his family is here and I am so excited. I cant wait to see the leaves changing and feel the cool climate. Noone else will be up there which is wierd cus its a family house and there is always someone there. But I will be glad to have the place to myself. get some movies... some takeout and look at the lake. This song popped up on my iPod the other nite and I cried. Back hen My husband was staying in Charlotte it always applied. I think it still kinda rings true and she is one of my all time fave artists. AirplanesTake you away againAre you flyingAbove where we liveThen I look up a glare in my eyesAre you having regrets about last nightI'm not but I like rivers that rush inSo then I dove inIs there trouble aheadFor you the acrobatI won't push you unless you have a netYou say the wordYou know I will find youOr if you need some timeI don't mindI don't hold onTo the tail of your kiteI'm not like the girls that you've knownBut I believe I'm worth coming home toKiss away nightThis girl only sleeps with butterfliesWith butterfliesSo go on and fly then boyBalloonsLook good from on the groundI fear with pins and needles aroundWe may fall then stumbleUpon a carouselIt could take us anywhereI'm not like the girls that you've knownBut I believe I'm worth coming home toKiss away nightThis girl only sleeps with butterfliesWith butterfliesWith butterfliesSo go on and fly boyMaybe it was my mistake. I gave him too much freedom. But I dont think that a good relationship requires rules. I think it should just mesh. My brother (gotta love him) made a comment on how STBX should't have expected me to up and move to Charlotte. I tried to remind him that I would have moved. In a heartbeat... If only he had been honest and open with me. It wasnt the moving that bothered me. Just moving to a new place with someone I couldnt trust. But I am ready for changes. I am ready to live for me for a while then hopefully find someone who can mesh too. Happy first day of fall. The leaves are speaking volumes. Change is good.
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Sorry. I should give credit where credit is due. The song was by Tori Amos.. Sleeps with Butterflies.
So lovely! You\'re really something! No, it\'s not your fault. You can\'t control him. And why bother? It\'s his loss!
You really are a good person inside, and you deserve better than you\'re allowing yourself to have. You have to get that feeling back, the one that says \'hey, i have to live my life for me\' and go with it. i know how you feel about the moving... i would do anything for my hubby, even without him asking me to. My hubby and i have that clicking relationship, and we get along so well. We hardly even fight, but i do feel some relief when he goes back on the road and i can have some time to myself. I love him to pieces, but he\'s a high maintenance guy and wants me to be with him when he\'s around, so when he goes i get to have that me time. Time heals everything, girlfriend, and you too shall be all right. Hugs and kisses. Deb :0)
Lol thanks guys... I love that ure hubby is high maintenance too. I always thought I had the only man like that. :)