Going to take a few minutes before I try sleep a bit to put my thoughts together for the meeting with the advocate at noon today, 9 hours away. I don't know how much it is intended that we will do in this first meeting. That calendar ticks by like the minute hand on a clock and too soon it reaches the deadline for my appeal for reconsideration of my disability application.

I pray that enough of the burden may be taken from my shoulders that I can handle what is left. I know that actually a first step to improving my life is getting onto disability. There will be greater freedom to seek out solutions. Solutions unavailable to me now.

But the stress in the meantime builds. I imagine better than doing nothing. I have much time to come to do nothing.