Dear God, today I learned something about myself, and you...
As you know, Don and I are going through the hardest thing that we'll ever do, and I've been so angry. Only you know how much anger I have held in my heart. I'm not proud of my language, thoughts, lack of communication with you, and some rather emotional prayers.
I wanted people to reach out to me, in the way I wanted. Not in the way they had to give. But I didn't ask them for what I needed... I haven't communicated my feelings at all for the last 2 years and 10 months. I'll tell you why Lord.
 I stewed in my own juices of resentment, anger, and embarrassment of not being able to keep my house and yard clean and orderly. My physical pain has gotten so much worse, and I feel helpless sometimes. Unfortunately I based some of these feelings on some incidents that happened early on in our journey, and I stopped asking for help. I do want to be specific in communicating my needs, but feel like I may be asking too much of my loved ones who face their own troubles in this life...
Dear Lord, I want my loved ones to know how much I love them. I always have and always will, and I'm sorry if they felt I held them at arms length. It's normal to assume things, but it isn't the right thing to do. I shouldn't expect anyone to know what I need or feel if I don't tell them.
This was my lesson for today, and what I learned about you is that I do the same thing to you, and I'm sorry... I pray fervently for you to change my heart Lord, and make me your better servant, not just for you but for every one I love.
In Jesus name I pray, Amen.