25 long but short years already!!!
Today is the 25th anniversary of Jerred's angel day, where did the time go? I still remember every detail of everyday until the casket was closed the last thing I remember was screaming NO! I do not remember anything after that until when my youngest was brought to the lunch after I had finished eating.
Last wednesday I felt like I was going to have a nervous break down. There is so much going on in my head and people pulling me in so many different directions and/or expecting me to do something for them. I talked to the bldg manager and social worker and just let them know what was going on. I cried the entire time. I have not cried since. Even writing this is not bringing tears. So I am praying that today through the 13th (day of funeral) I will just have good memories this year. I have a lady cleaning my apartyment for free and yesterday she found a homemade card my aunt I lost last october that she made and sent me 6 years ago when Jerred would have turned 25. What a very special gift that was to find.
It is now just after the time I got to the river and still no tears. I am praying this is a sign that this year will be a bit easier to get through. I sure hope so as the last 3 weeks have been horrible and I need a good break.
God Bless You All My Friends,
Susie
xoxoxoxo
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Susie, gentle hugs as you honor your dear Jerred on this tender day. May sweet memories sustain you and may you feel your son close by. Love, Linda
Understanding in only the ways that another mother can who is walking Hand in hand and Heart to heart with you. Hoping that a precious memory or two of your BEloved Jerred came in and that you feel the loving support that is here.
May a tender kindness BE yours today,
XO Joanie
Susie, I am hoping you are making it through this difficult time period as gently as possible. These days can bring havoc to our well being. I also hope and pray that you may find an ease in your health situation soon. Sending love, Leda