Well, I ran over a frog today......:( Which made my day horrible.....LOL It was tragic "The Beautiful Green creature" just committed suicide, and jumped right underneath my tire. Lets have a moment of silence............................................................................Haha!! Alright, on a serious note: my days have been alright for the most part I have my on, and off moments. One minute I'll be fine, and the next I'm sad. Sometimes I can't even put it into words when asked whats wrong. Well, actually for the most part I can't put it into words I always have to type it. You see I graduated "06 and I always had these huge plans for myself. There are so many things I want to do in this world, and I feel stuck in the smallest town in the world. You see after I graduated I moved in with my cousin, and drove 30 miles aday to a College in Waco, but all they did was judge me. My Aunt the most, I know she only wants me to be the best I can be, but all she ever did was tell me What I should "Look Like" and what I should do. She was always rude to me. Then this past Summer I moved in with my Aunt for awhile, and it was horrible. Her b/F and her just seperated after years of dating, and she was worse then usual. It really hurts my feelings when she makes rude comments. So I couldn't take it anymore, and moved back in with my parents, and I had to help them with some money issues. So now I have no money for college.....so I'm taking a semester off to work full-time, and save money for next semester. However, I'm REALLY scared b/c my life isn't going how I was hoping it would. What if I end up being a nobody for the rest of my life???????? I feel like that all the time, what if I am a nobody. I want to be successful so much. It's my dream to move to New York, and become an author. I also would love to be on Broadway......LOL Get into acting, and I love Music so anything with Music would be GREAT!!!!!!! But, then I have all of these people saying I need to be realistic, and why would anybody want to move to New York. "You should be a Nurse"......"They all try to talk me into being who they think I should be, instead of just letting me who I am". I don't like reality.........REALITY SUCKS!!!!! Reality in my world, is my parents always fighting "Guys piss me off at the moment b/c all of them around me are always assholes to the ones I love. Even tho I know all Guys are not like that. Everybody always talks about how they hate their jobs. I refuse to have a job I hate, b/c the way I see it is "Life is short so why do things that you hate" If I were to die today would I be happy? My answer "NO". I have to find a way out, I feel like I'm sufficating with no place to turn. I haven't even told my Aunt I took a semester off b/c she'll start lecturing me about it, and I already feel sad enough. I pray, and wish on shooting starts all the time that my dreams will come true, and I refuse to give up on my dreams. Yes, I get discouraged sometimes, and I know it's good to be realistic to a certain extent. but, I'm tired of everybody telling me to be realistic, and you should do this, and do that. They all want me to be, and look like somebody I'm not. Oh, and I have watched "The Secret" and it has helped me tremendously so........if you haven't watched it you should it's about being POSITIVE!!!!!!! Please, watch it, it has helped me alot. I'm really upset right now, and I have no clue where I'm going to be in a few years. I worry way to much about the future........LOL!!!! Well, Thanks for taking the time to read, this it really means alot!!!!!! :D Peace!!!!!!!! LOL