Today has been one of the hardest days for me in a very long time. I have done nothing but compare my life to the life of someone I care about very deeply. I feel as though I will never be as smart, or pretty, or as normal as her. It has caused major stress in my life... Which has led to acting out not only sexually- but in other aspects of my life. I have been pulling like crazy today, and I worked myself up so much- I b/p'd (which I haven't done in three years give or take...) I just want to start over. I've met someone I really like, but I'm afraid I'll push him away because the way I handle things is by acting out sexually... But our relationship hasn't even become that way yet. I'm afraid that he will leave me like everyone else if I introduce him to that.... I am so afraid of being alone because of my addiction
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Kelly , can I call you Kelly ?? , I\'ve lost everyone in my life due to my BiPolar , B4 and after being diagnosed . I\'ve had such a rotten life , always taken ,(or I\'ve given) my life for others without questions , always trusting and being taken for a fool !!! I\'m tired of IT , will you be my TRUE friend if your man that your kinda seeing doesn\'t work out ?! I\'m trying to build up a community of good friends and lovers too call my own !! My name is Ray , ALL cool people are welcome , just please do not be a heartbreaker, just like I\'m not !!!