I'm trying to feel better. So far, my breathing is much better. My chest doesn't feel as tight as before in the last few days. It feels pretty clear but I still cough here and there. Mainly if my throat gets irritated by something (food, drink, etc.). Otherwise, I'm ok. 
I'm so scared at times. I get scared of the things I eat. I sometimes think that I might get food poisoning from the things I eat or drink. Sometimes I think that I might die from some of the medicines that I have to take. Sometimes, I think I'm going to die.
But I try to fight those thoughts by forcing myself to think positive. It's those damn thoughts that cause me to have panic attacks like the ones in the past. I hate how I feel this way.
I think the only way for me to feel more calm is if I just get checked with everything. That includes: a blood test for stds, cholesterol and allergies, a heart test, and a pap smear. I should also include a bone test too. I also want to get tested for my back since I remembered a doctor telling me that I have a "cushion" missing in my lower vertebrae so if I ever get pregnant, that I can break my back. I don't know. Ugh, this is really bothering me. Really, I should just get checked all over so that I won't worry anymore. Also, no more smoking for sure now,especially after going through all of this!