So far I've been feeling alittle better. I don't really check "him" out online as much as I use to. I guess cuz I'm also sooo and I mean so determined to get really good grades this semester. So more than half the time, my head is buried in my books. The more I stop looking him up online, or hope to get a call from him, the more healing I feel within myself! And more good news. I'm planning on trying to get an internship in NYC this summer!! But this has NOTHING to do with the guy I was so into (He also lives there); since prior to him, I wanted to go there, which is mainly the reason why I'm determined to get really good grades so I can be picked for an internship there!I feel so CHANGED!!...eversince I've moved here to the islands, so many good things have been happening to me. I've made friends from different countries all around the world. Outside of that lonesome and inhibiting box that I use to live in back home, I've realized that there are really GOOD people out there! I'm also starting to realize what my strengths and my weaknesses are as far as how my personality is. Being here has surely opened up my eyes as well as my heart to this whole new world that I now live in. And now, I'm about to expand it even more as I try to get an internship in NY! Gosh, I've never been there, but it's always been one of my dreams to work in such a fascinating and wonderous place such as this!All this time, and reflecting on the past, how I was so scared to be left alone with panic attacks that I felt were eating away at my life, that now I'm free of them! Even to the point of moving across an ocean to a place where I didn't really know anyone! And now I'm gonna do it again and there's no stopping me! :D