I had a slight panic attack last night and I text him that I did. I even called him and he didn't answer neither. I'm so pissed!! So I texted him back "nevermind..goodbye"..I don't ever want to talk to him ever again!! I hate him!! I hope I never see him again on this island!! I have to cut it off before I want to kill myself or have more panic attacks!!!I don't think he cares. I thought he did. We've already been intimate and now I'm starting to think that it was a BIG mistake. Now I can't create the relationship I've always wanted with him anymore. Yesterday before I txted him or called him, he was here at my apartment and for some odd reason, he didn't really seem that into me. We went to the store and he didn't really hug me or really hold my hand like how he's been doing. I think he lost interest!! Now I'm here all sad!! Damn it!! I came here to start all over... now this?? Starting off with a broken heart?? I hate my life right now!!! I hate him!! Why does this always happen to me? I'm incapable of being loved!!!! I just know it! I've just been crying all night and only had a few hours of sleep. I woke up this morning and I just started crying again!! I have a class in the next hour and I HATE how I have to go!! I just wanna sit here and cry till I die!! All they want from me is just one thing and it hurts! It hurts so bad!! I thought this guy really was into me. He told me that I "completed him" and that he trusts me. So I thought that I could trust him, but now I see that all that time, he probably never cared and ofcourse, never loved me or felt anything for me. I'll never have the love I crave for. It's just never going to happen in this lifetime.
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So sorry to hear that. I know how you feel. It so hard to put yourself out there only to have someone betray you that way. Please try and stay posiitve and I hope you feel better and focus on school. Sending hugs your way. Take care
Oh hun I\'m sorry but maybe he was having a bad day, just try to find out what hes thinking before you jump to too many conclusions. And if he is dissapearing on you then hes just an asshole that doesn\'t deserve you anyways...unfortunately there are a lot out there and it is NOT a reflection of you! You will find someone is that we just gotta go through a lot of shit to get there...but you still have us and your future, try not to forget that even though I\'m sure it is impossible to think of that stuff when you are in so much pain :( If you need to chat I\'m here!
Sweetie, that is terrible. You don\'t deserve to be treated that way, just remember that. Some guys are connivers and are after one thing. They\'ll say anything to get what they want. You need to get your anger and hurt out, cry and let it out. I do know exactly how you feel, went through a broken marriage and it feels like your heart is being ripped out when you are betrayed in that way. Take deep breaths, have a cup of herbal tea, curl up with a good movie. Try to focus on school and be good to yourself. Believe it or not, there IS someone out there who is right for you! You\'re a beautiful, caring person and you will find someone who is deserving of your love. Take care, hon!
xoxo Collie
Hi sweetie,I hate this happen to you.You deserve better.A lot of guys will say anything toget what they want.You are loveable,its not you.You are a beautiful young girl,there will be othersand you will find the right one for you.Someone who will cherish you as you need to be.I know you are hurt right now,have a good cry and let it all out.This guy is too good for you.You focus on school sweetie,believe me,there will be someone out there for you,and will be very glad to have you as a girlfriend.You will find that special someone,just wait and see.Try and not let this guy get to you so much sweetie.you are a wonderful girl and i know its his lost not yours.Try and focus on school sweetie,and take care of yourseft.Know you are in my prayers and thoughts.Love you my sweet friend.Love ya,Shea....................................