I can't stand this laptop! It automatically changes the page and sometimes I lose what I wrote! This is the second time I'm writing this and I'm hoping it doesn't automatically go to the next page again!!Anyway, I'm going to try to get back into that same mood again when I wrote that damn looong journal....hmm, so far I've been at my mom's house and I was feeling lonely a second ago, but now I'm pissed cuz I wrote a long journal entry and now it got erased!!I haven't been out much. None of my gfs call me. I think it's cuz I'm being more independent-minded and not having to deal with our one-sided friendship all the time! I swear, everything was always on their clock and their clock only! Everything was practically always their way! And when I need them as a friend to lend an ear, they're never available! But I am for them! They hardly ever wanted to compromise with me on hardly anything! I've been friends with these girls for such a long time and now that I've reached the most hardest point in my life, I'm realizing that maybe these girls were really never true friends to begin with. I'm dealing with so much right now. I'm just barely getting over the fact that my dad is with a new wife my age and I'll be moving to Hawaii for college in a month and I'm nervous and scared. I only know my mom's friends (this old couple) and I don't know them very well, but they did say that if I ever need anything I could always go to them. I also met some people (guys ofcourse) online from there, but that doesn't count as knowing them. It sucks when you hardly have any girl pals you can bond with and all you have are just guys who just want one thing only from you. It makes me feel even more lonlier.