I can't be alone..I just CANNOT be alone for long periods of time! I start thinking suicidal and that nobody cares! All my friends that know about my condition are hardly ever available. Usually, when I try to call them or need a shoulder to cry on (in person) they're usually not available!! I have noone to turn to!!  There are some people on this site that care about me as much as I care about them, but then there are the ones whom I try to help out and give them comments but they never comment me back or try to help me!     I'm starting to wonder about this site now...I really wish I can talk to someone and hug them right now cuz it hurts so bad!! When you feel like you're the only one out there all alone and alienated from everyone. Having that empty feeling eating at u over and over again! It's like a hideous disease that tortures you deep inside and you feel like you can't get rid of it!!     I wish I can just end this pain and not suffer no more!! When will it end?