tired, tired, tired...I want this semester to be over already!!
Sorry, I just have to whine, otherwise I will burst like a bubble.
Lately, for the past few days (or hours, I can't keep track of time nowadays) I've been trying to search for who I am. Sometimes I like to do certain things, but then I lose interest quickly.
I took a depression test online yesterday and it said that if you score 58+ you have severe depression. Well, my score came out to 89!
Now I'm scared. I'm so scared of what I'm capable of doing or what I might end up doing.
Plus I have to pass this semester with a GPA of 2.0 or better. Otherwise, my admission to UH is revoked! And I'm not doing so well in 2 of my classes and it's almost the end of the semester in a week and a half!
Sometimes I care about going there and other times I'm not as excited. Maybe cuz I don't wanna get my hopes up too high. Cuz if I do, and find out I'm let down, I get really sad and
depressed even more!
Oh well, we shall see. I gotta kick my own butt to thinking more positive! I hope everyone is having a good day today! I'm trying :)
Sorry, I just have to whine, otherwise I will burst like a bubble.
Lately, for the past few days (or hours, I can't keep track of time nowadays) I've been trying to search for who I am. Sometimes I like to do certain things, but then I lose interest quickly.
I took a depression test online yesterday and it said that if you score 58+ you have severe depression. Well, my score came out to 89!
Now I'm scared. I'm so scared of what I'm capable of doing or what I might end up doing.
Plus I have to pass this semester with a GPA of 2.0 or better. Otherwise, my admission to UH is revoked! And I'm not doing so well in 2 of my classes and it's almost the end of the semester in a week and a half!
Sometimes I care about going there and other times I'm not as excited. Maybe cuz I don't wanna get my hopes up too high. Cuz if I do, and find out I'm let down, I get really sad and
depressed even more!
Oh well, we shall see. I gotta kick my own butt to thinking more positive! I hope everyone is having a good day today! I'm trying :)
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First let me say that I took one of those tests online too. And the important thing to remember about them is that they are not a professional opinion...you should not get too worked up about it. If you think you need to, go and see a doctor and talk about how you have been feeling and take it from there. As for school, I know completely how stressful that can be, but all you can do is give it your best and whatever happens happens. You are a smart person and I know you will do well in whatever you do. take care, things will work out.....
here, let me help you kick your butt! I know this is all damn hard, but you ARE strong, you ARE going to make it with a GPA better than 2.0, YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH THIS! I just flat refuse to believe anything else, and therefore you have to believe it too! ;) - okay, \'nuf of the drill sargeant... I just want you to be happy, and I know it\'s hard, especially when you\'re on your own. Hell\'s bells woman, I still don\'t know who I am at certain times, and I\'ve got 7 years on ya... our entire life is about learning who we are... when we figure it all out, then we move on. I used to think that life was a test, and that at a certain point we passed and were then able to relax, like being on summer vacation... I am here to tell you that no such luck. Life is a 24-hr pop quiz, and no one told you what it was going to be about, and you don\'t even have the book, let alone having studied for it... I think there\'s lots of things you can do if the depression scares you. Easy things like 5-HTP (herbal supplement), St. John\'s Wort... my sister gets something called \"happy campers\" at wal-mart and swears by them...
hugs from me, sorry for being a hard-ass! Love you, and don\'t want to see you fail!
mwah!