Omg I did it!! I went up there and did my presentation in front of 80 people!! And the funny thing is, I wasn't nervous at all when I went up there! I mean, for having panic attacks, this sure shows I can beat this disorder!
So far so good. But to change the subject,since I might be moving to Hawaii, I thought I'd meet some people online (and I met several guys). There was this one guy I met that lives there (I met him in Feb. online) and we've been talking on the phone for awhile since then.
He sent me his picture and I didn't find him really attractive. Plus, I'm all about vibes, and when he first started texting me, I got this feeling that he's not gonna make me feel good about myself in the long run. But, I continued to talk to him until the other day, I was talking to him on the phone about current events that happened on the islands (I thought it would be cool to talk to him about that stuff since he was from there)when all of a sudden he said, "You're obsessed with Hawaii"
That made me furious!! I told him that sounded demeaning and he told me that "no, it's good you know about Hawaii!"...well, the word "obsess" doesn't sound very positive at all (you know what I mean?)
So I told him I had to go and I haven't called him or contacted him since. He's been trying to contact me, but I never answer the phone. Now I just got a text from him with an apology and he said maybe one day we can talk again as friends. Then I started to cry. I don't know why when I don't even find him attractive! I can't even have an intellectual conversation with him!! What he said pissed me off!
So far so good. But to change the subject,since I might be moving to Hawaii, I thought I'd meet some people online (and I met several guys). There was this one guy I met that lives there (I met him in Feb. online) and we've been talking on the phone for awhile since then.
He sent me his picture and I didn't find him really attractive. Plus, I'm all about vibes, and when he first started texting me, I got this feeling that he's not gonna make me feel good about myself in the long run. But, I continued to talk to him until the other day, I was talking to him on the phone about current events that happened on the islands (I thought it would be cool to talk to him about that stuff since he was from there)when all of a sudden he said, "You're obsessed with Hawaii"
That made me furious!! I told him that sounded demeaning and he told me that "no, it's good you know about Hawaii!"...well, the word "obsess" doesn't sound very positive at all (you know what I mean?)
So I told him I had to go and I haven't called him or contacted him since. He's been trying to contact me, but I never answer the phone. Now I just got a text from him with an apology and he said maybe one day we can talk again as friends. Then I started to cry. I don't know why when I don't even find him attractive! I can't even have an intellectual conversation with him!! What he said pissed me off!
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First off - GOOD JOB on the presentation!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!
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Sweetie, you are going through so much right now, that things like this are going to feel worse than they should... I think the connection with this guy and Hawaii is just that, a connection. You want to move there, so you want contact with someone who lives there, and his rejection feels like the concept of moving to hawaii is rejecting you... sounds weird I know, but I really think that\'s what it is. You\'re looking for a sign as to whether or not you should do this, and his being an asshole makes you feel more unsure about moving. My advice, having been in your shoes, is let it go the best you can, and move past it. When we sold our acreage and moved to the lake, every single person we knew told us that it was a horrid idea, and every time something went wrong with the purchase of the house, everyone said it was a \"sign\" that we shouldn\'t move. I\'m here to tell you that moving to the lake was the single best thing we\'ve ever done, and now all of the people who told us not to try to spend as much time at our house as they can because they love it so much.
Just hold tight, this is a bumpy road, but it is really, really worth it in the end!!!!!!!!
Please don\'t let him get to you, trust your inner voice and instincts, they won\'t steer you wrong!
much love, sunshine! candy
Hi sweetie, hey i am so proud of you!!!!!!!!!In front of 80 people and you didn\'t have a panic attack!WOW,that is great,it proves you can get over yout panic attacks!!!!Hun,i agree with Candy,do not let this guy get to you.You were trying,and i do not blame you for one minute.There are more as they say\"Fish in the sea\"lol.My prayers are with you,and i think you did just fine!I know everything will work out for you,i know it will.You just hang in there sweetie!Love ya,SHEA......................
Hi sweetie, hey i am so proud of you!!!!!!!!!In front of 80 people and you didn\'t have a panic attack!WOW,that is great,it proves you can get over yout panic attacks!!!!Hun,i agree with Candy,do not let this guy get to you.You were trying,and i do not blame you for one minute.There are more as they say\"Fish in the sea\"lol.My prayers are with you,and i think you did just fine!I know everything will work out for you,i know it will.You just hang in there sweetie!Love ya,SHEA......................