So tired, but I feel like I had to write. I've had the most busiest school semester ever!! I never really knew that college could be so hard, but maybe it's cuz I'm taking upper division classes and taking a full load.
I always feel much better when I write in here. It's so fulfilling. I'm about to loose this house when my dad's new wife comes here! I can't get over the fact that she is my age! I hate it!! I hate how my family is torn apart for the rest of my life. It saddens me like crazy! And I hate the fact that I have to live with it till the day I die!! I miss my family being together. The unity of it all! It's so fulfilling, yet its so hard to find nowadays I think. It makes me wonder "Is there any hope for me to have a wonderful family one day?"
I'm just a family-oriented person. I don't know. Maybe I'm just feeling like this cuz I'm pushing 30 and I'm single. But I really can't help but feel sad and be honest about it.
No panic attacks for a whole week (and without the meds too)!! The Lord really does listen and help you when you talk to him! :D :D
I always feel much better when I write in here. It's so fulfilling. I'm about to loose this house when my dad's new wife comes here! I can't get over the fact that she is my age! I hate it!! I hate how my family is torn apart for the rest of my life. It saddens me like crazy! And I hate the fact that I have to live with it till the day I die!! I miss my family being together. The unity of it all! It's so fulfilling, yet its so hard to find nowadays I think. It makes me wonder "Is there any hope for me to have a wonderful family one day?"
I'm just a family-oriented person. I don't know. Maybe I'm just feeling like this cuz I'm pushing 30 and I'm single. But I really can't help but feel sad and be honest about it.
No panic attacks for a whole week (and without the meds too)!! The Lord really does listen and help you when you talk to him! :D :D
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AWWW,sweetie,I am so very happy you have went a whole week without a panic attack!I am very proud of you!I know college can be hard,but you are taking a upper divisison class with a full load.I am sorry sweetie about how things are with your family.Always rememeber that you will have a life of your own,you didn\'t make this change to your family.I know it has to sadden you,but what counts is what you do!Yes,you can have a wondeful family one day!Hey sweetie,i have a neise who went to college and didn\'t get married til she was 36.She is happely married wih two boys.So just cause you are 30,does not mean you are old,you are still young!The choises you make in this life will be yours,and you will make the right ones.Just look at you now,how much you are doing!I think it is wonderful!The lord does hear us and he is with us,keep the faith sweetie.You will be ok,and you only have to givve account for what you do in this life,same as everyone else!I want you to know i am very proud of you!You keep up the good work,and you have already starting living your life,and thats a step in the right path!Love you sweetie,and you are in my prayers,LOve ya,SHEA.......................
Hey sweetie! I\'m so sorry that you\'re being pushed out of your home by this interloper. I can only imagine how very difficult it is to see you dad with someone your own age. That would give me the creeps to no end. I understand your sadness and you\'re completely validated to feel that way.
What I can say is that a.) YOU are a wonderful person. and b.) our lives are what we make them. I com from a history of physical and sexual abuse by a violent horrid man... and I am married to a wonderful man, and we have a great marriage. I have NOT let my past dictate my future. You can and will make a wonderful life for yourself and your future family, because that is what you want...
much love, dear heart! candy