I haven't written in awhile cuz of school stressing me out!...the thought of doing homework makes me feel depressed even more!...I wish I didn't feel this way!

I'm so tired of asking my mom for money all the time. I feel so guilty asking her since I'm almost 30, but there's no way I'd have time for a job with going to school full-time! ...I can probably pull it off but I definitely won't get high grades and I need those high grades to qualify for good internships!

All I keep wishing for is to be on the islands...that's seriously all I ever think about. I know it's silly, but I'm always imagining myself there and how life would be much more easier there being away from the drama with my dad and other family members...I know for a fact they'll never change!