You know, honestly, I have thoughts of suicide...I would wonder how it would feel to end this torturing pain that I have in my heart every single minute of the day. I feel like the only time I don't feel this pain is when I'm asleep and lately (for the first time since I was like 10 years old) I've been sleeping almost 10 hours a night..actually I would go to bed at 3am every night and wake up around 12 or 1 in the afternoon...and since I have night classes, it fits my schedule...I am planning on joining a social group I found online for young women, but it's not necessarily a group to help women with their problems. It's more like a group to go out with...I hope it helps with my loneliness.