Death

I never realized how appealing death could be. I want to creep closer and closer to this, but I can't get too close. I wish to disappear into the depths of the earth where no one can find me or remember me. I'm dying in the inside, slowly oh so slowly. I wish the process was faster. But I can't die just yet. I have too many things to look forward to, but I just want to die. I started cutting from stress again and I feel awful. Thought about suicide a few times these few months. I can't do it.