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akacountrygirl
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Anxiety

I am so tired of waking up full of anxiety.  I need to face this demon and put it in it's place once and for all.
I though depression was tough....anxiety is just as hard.  Many prayers needed.

My biggest fear is old age...afraid of waking up depending upon others to change my diapers, eat , etc.  Could not go see my mother in law in the nursing home.  I thought if I go there and see people suffering ....I am going to come home and want to end it all.

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bethann718
bethann718

I\'m sorry you\'re going through these, what seem like uncontrollable feelings. If you can try to put other thoughts in your mind to change the ill emotions. We have to listen to our little \"person\"in our heads, then put them back in their place till they rear again. We need you to be part of our family. Too many have already been lost to this monster. And really, life is a struggle for many. My prayers are with you. Hugs. BTW I have no idea what you\'re going through. I just don\'t want your heart to ache as well as your body. Take care
Trissa01
Trissa01

Allow your self some time to feel angry & sad! I put a time limit on it, then tell me \"thats enough for now, something else in m head, please\".
Anxiety is a facet of depression, manifests differently from apathy & somnelence. Some prof help at least temporarily may benefit
Wishing you the best. Very wise to journal about it! Let your friends help
Trissa01
Trissa01

And you\'re not in diapers today so don\'t visualize it LOL
akacountrygirl
akacountrygirl

Thanks all for your understanding. My usual cure is to get busy doing anything...as long as I don\'t think about what is making me anxious.

I feel like that is not the way to deal with it....although it works short term. Yes, I feel like counseling would help....I will have to see if I can afford it. Thanks again