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Feeling pretty good right now.  Disappointed in myself but it is a far cry from how I woke up.  I woke up full of anxiety and dread. I think if I was financially stable I wouldn't have as much anxiety.
Fearing hard times are ahead and there will be no one to help or care.  Not getting any help or care now, except from husband so who will be there after he is gone?
I wish I had the faith in God that I used to have.  Analytical side just won't let me.
On the other hand, I know he/she is real and for every reason there is a purpose.
Again, I am struggling with purpose.  Use to be a mom and had a great career....now I wonder what I am supposed to do.  I like to feel needed and know that I am helping someone.  How do I change this???