1/24- The last few days have been hard emotionally. I feel like I'm all on my own in this family. A few days ago a friend of Kealy's posted a video of Kealy being funny and I got to hear her laugh again. I had happy tears but tears of grief too. I tried talking to Dave about it and my feelings and he didn't want to hear me or talk about it because I guess it upset him. Anyway, he snapped at me, hurt my feelings and I ended up crying more. So now I feel like not opening up to him anymore about anything.
The girls are doing ok. Joy however, is acting out in anger more and that is starting to scare me. I'm afraid she may end up seriously hurting Jennie or inadvertently herself. It seems like their pdoc isn't really listening to us when we talk about it. I don't know what he is thinking but, if he doesn't prescribe something at their next appointment I'm changing doctors. They can go where I go. They see kids as well as adults. Only thing is they would have to go back into therapy but that might not be such a bad thing.
We have/had a girl renting a room from us but she trashed the room, has neglected her dog, and started bad mouthing Dave. Well, Dave evicted her. It don't matter to me but, she has been getting on my nerves lately anyway. So, hopefully she goes soon and without any drama.
I think, FINALLY, things are starting to turn around for us. I was able to get bills paid, and we're getting a car. Dave says he is going to get a job with our nephew. That will be nice and good for us. Only downfall, he'll be gone on long extended period of time. I'm hoping I can get the girls to listen to me more before then.
I have been also feeling like most of our friends are ditching us. So, there aren't a lot ppl around to hang with or do things with. Even if there was I have a trust issue with ppl. I really do feel like I'm all alone.
The girls are doing ok. Joy however, is acting out in anger more and that is starting to scare me. I'm afraid she may end up seriously hurting Jennie or inadvertently herself. It seems like their pdoc isn't really listening to us when we talk about it. I don't know what he is thinking but, if he doesn't prescribe something at their next appointment I'm changing doctors. They can go where I go. They see kids as well as adults. Only thing is they would have to go back into therapy but that might not be such a bad thing.
We have/had a girl renting a room from us but she trashed the room, has neglected her dog, and started bad mouthing Dave. Well, Dave evicted her. It don't matter to me but, she has been getting on my nerves lately anyway. So, hopefully she goes soon and without any drama.
I think, FINALLY, things are starting to turn around for us. I was able to get bills paid, and we're getting a car. Dave says he is going to get a job with our nephew. That will be nice and good for us. Only downfall, he'll be gone on long extended period of time. I'm hoping I can get the girls to listen to me more before then.
I have been also feeling like most of our friends are ditching us. So, there aren't a lot ppl around to hang with or do things with. Even if there was I have a trust issue with ppl. I really do feel like I'm all alone.
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i am so sorry your husband is unable to be a comfort to you. Unfortunately some men feel they have to fix it. They can\'t and it come out as anger. As for friends. I am afraid it is not uncommon for them to become scarce. I found out who my real friends were.
i hope the girl goes without fuss and bother. Wishing all the best to you and your family.
I wish I had some words of wisdom. Just know I understand and care.
Love and tight hugs,
Marlene
your journal is packed with stuff.... and Marlene is so right..... we lost \"friends\"... but we still have the best ones.... men... talking... ha! get the girl out ,,, you don\'t need that... change dr.\'s if it will help the girls... love and prayers to you and your family....