“Everything around I couldn’t see…I wish I known how much you loved me…” –Moby

I am feeling very small at the moment to the point that if I take another breath I know I will fade like a sigh.  Everything feels so complex. I am standing on the side lines of life looking at everyone else having fun. I want so much to go out and join them but every time I have taken that chance in the past I managed to get hurt to the point that I don’t see point in even trying.

Negativity. Ugh! It swirls around me and smothers me like a heavy blanket. I want to push it off so I can survive the night without this overwhelming feeling of dread. Perhaps I am just lonely? Perhaps I am just realizing certain things. Perhaps its just nothing more then a growing pain….