I went to the store last night and I ran into her .....I had not seen her that close in 4 moths....(since we are almost neighbors I do see her from time to time....)I was walking down the isle and there she was walking right past me ....I just kept talking to my two year old and pretended like she was not even there. my heart started beating so fast, it was like everything came back, all the memorys and the pain was right there again.....it was aweful. I could not even remember what I had gone to the store for...so I ended up getting a bunch of toys for the kids to make myself fell better, stupid I knowI got lucky though because my 2 year old did not see her, that would have been bad if he would have said " mom look J.?" I dont know what I would have said then....No honey that is not J. !? So I am thankful that I did not have to deal with that situation.