well things are better but I think that is partly because I am so buzy I dont even have time to think....between work, my three kids and beeing the cookie mom for the entire service unit of the girl scouts (what was I thinking) !My H and I are still going to counceling and that really seems to help but I still get images of the two of them together ....I guesse it will take a while for that to go away if it ever does.She has a new man, and when I heard that she is happy I thought: Good, I hope you fall madly in Love with him and then he breaks your heart!Isnt that awfull? But I really feel like she does not deserve to be happy and at the same time I feel guilty about feeling that way cause who am I to judge?Well I guesse I feel that way because so far I have only been dealing with the betrayal by my H and sort of left the other stuff on the backburner.... Maybe it is time to start working through that because I dont want to be bitter! I have this urge to shake her and try to make her understand what she did, its like I need her to tell me she gets it and how sorry she is but all I ever got from her was that it was my H's fault! Yes he is the one that is married to me but how about her part in this? She was my best friend? I even told her several times that I thought they had at least an emotional affair, at that point I didnt realize they were screwing in my bed... I am still so mad at myself for not trusting my instincts and telling her to get the F out of my house....but I am working through that with the Doc. You know some days are better than others.....Sometimes I think I am all better and the next day I hear a song and I start crying all over again....You know the worst part is that I wonder if any frienship is even reall, you know what I mean?