so we had our talk last night. He looked like a beaten dog. Could hardly look at me. He told me that he has not been in love with me for a long time and that is why it happened. I dont know if I belive that because up untill a few month ago we were very happy together. He would always tell me that we are so lucky to have found each other and he would make love to me... you know I think there is a difference between having sex and making love.....Maybe I just dont want to belive it......But he was allways so affectionate... Well anyway he told me that nothing was my fault and that I am a beautifull person inside and out and that he was sorry for hurting me and not treating me with the respect that I deserve. I told him that the part in me that hates him wants him to be miserabel with her but the part that loves him wants him to be happy.I asked him if when he would sleep with me if he was mine then or if he would think of her....he said the right thing but I think he just wanted to make himself feel better.The thing that gets me is that when he woukld look at me he had this loving, hurt almost longing look in his eyes and I almost felt sorry for him. I told him that I was hurt because he didnt even give us a chance that he just decided for himself that it was over without even trying to fix it. Well I guesse the good thing is that now I know for sure he doesnt love me anymore and I dont have to worry about taking him back or not anymore.Maybe that will help me get over him faster. I still cant belive how they could look at me and lie to my face all this time and how she could pretened to be my best friend and get me to tell her about him and I....every little detail.He is comming over today to tell our kids. My 8 year old is going to be devastated. It is her second divorce and i am going to have to tell her that he moved in with her because she is best friends with her daughter and they go to the same school.Oh how this all sucks. Could I really have been such an Idiot and not known that my husband fell out of love with me a long time ago? Could he really have been such a good actor? Could lhe last year of my marriage have been a lie?