Monday Monday

My mother had open heart surgery on June 5th. I went to be with and take care of dad while she was in the hospital. One day her doctor came in to see her while I was visiting. She was having trouble breathing. The dr asked if her if she had a precondition of that. She said she didn't think so...when the dr passed me I said "she wouldn't know anyway as she doesn't go to the dr". I am depressed.....severely depressed. Not to the point of physical harm but enough. While in FL. with mom I had to cancel my routine ECT. I have been putting off rescheduling since I've returned to NY. As I thought about mom and how she never sees a dr and the state she is in, I called the hospital to schedule the help I so desperately need. One reason I've been putting it off because my wife has been sick and very weak and cannot drive. I need the help and I am gonna get it. I won't wait till something severe happens..I am not like that...its bad enough I put it off this long but I had to. I don't like putting things off. I have seen too much recently with my mom and wife of what happens when you put things off for too long. I am not like that. I get a physical every year, if I have a pain or sickness that won't go away I go see my MD. Putting off till tomorrow only brings heartache and pain..lord knows I've had enough of both. I've achieved my goals for today..call the hospital make an appointment for my wife and I to see the chiropractor and an appointment to get the car serviced, did three loads of laundry, washed the dishes. I'm feeling pretty good. I am going to hang out with my son this afternoon. Life is good...