Its 4am on Sunday. I'm wide awake after having another bout of intense dreams...these dreams are worrying me. I don't know their meanings but I'm sure I'm having them for a reason. I'm lonely as hell. Since its the Sabbath I am depressed that I cannot go to church and worship and take the Sacrament. Besides when I go to church I feel even more lonely and isolated and separated from Heavenly Father. My addiction is raging.