Again, it's been a long time since I've written.   I'm doing fine at work and the family is doing great. I'm still having a hard time with food.  I'm at the point were anything I put in my mouth makes me sick unless it's creamed soups or my protein drinks.   I'm really starting to think that maybe it's psycological.   I'm so tired of throwing up that I'm afraid to eat.  Even preparing food or cooking makes me nausious.  I'm jealous of those of you that are at 4 - 7 weeks eating solid foods, and enjoying them.  Tommorow is 11 weeks for me and I cannot and I'm scared I never will be able too.  I still don't regret having the surgery.  I know it's been my life saver and I would never have lost weight without it.   I'm just miserable that I can't eat anything except tomato soup and protein shakes.    I have to force myself to get anything down.  I'm happy about the weight loss though :-)Starting weight:  383 (surgery 8/15)Todays weight:  312 Total Loss:  71 lbs