To be honest, I've never really had a journal that I've kept up with before. Maybe an online journal would be better instead of a paper back one. Typing is much easier anyway. I'm kind of rambling on about a bunch of nothingness right now. My brain's pretty scattered at the moment. 

I feel as if I'm drowning in a pool full of energy. Most likely the reason is that I've had two red bulls and I'm on my third one now. You know talking to myself through writing is kind of nice because I know that I'll listen. Cause most people don't want to listen to your problems unless you're a psychiatrist and get paid big bucks to do it. 

There's this guy that I'm kind of seeing and kind of not seeing. His name is Jake. He's very confusing. We fight like we're in a relationship sometimes even though we are only friends with benefits. 

All though, the thing for me is that I like him more then a friend. (He doesn't know that) I'm trying to be nonechelont about the whole thing.  Plus I have a fear of intimacy. I really need help with that but I don't think i'll be able to get help because nobody really understands this issue of mine. They say they do but they really don't. Anyway, I'm gonna go work on my english essay now. Since i'ts due today and I'm skipping the class to work on it. 

Yours truly, Devin.

03/18/15