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I've just done some artwork. A sketch of Gerard Way from MCR. I enjoyed it whilst I was doing it but now I'm finished all I see are the mistakes. The parts that should have been slightly different. The bits that needed to be darker. The problems that cause the picture to NOT look how I wanted it to. I'm not so sure it was a good idea to do it now because I feel like a complete dissapointment. Everything I do I'm average at. There is nothing I have a 'talent' for and it pisses me off because other people say I am talented when it comes to art and music. It's bullshit. I'm only talented with regards to the rest of my family, none of whom do ANY art or play ANY instrument. I tried to play some songs on my guitar earlier and got pissed off with that too because I can't play good enough to enjoy it.I just feel like a failure. I can't even be a 'proper' anorexic anymore because I'm at fucking DAY PATIENTS and have to EAT all the bloody time....Sorry I'm just feeling shitty...
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hey u have the right to feel shitty u dont have to say sorry, i wish there was something i could do for u. just know i\'m thinking of u and i love u dearly.