HOW!?
Not feeling very positive at the moment.I had another therapy session today but it didn't really go as well as I hoped. I don't know what he wants from me anymore! He was talking about me changing my thoughts. That I can't control the feelings, they'll change last, but I can change my thoughts............................................ HOW? ..........................................................Ok. So I have a thought: "It's hopeless, my life isn't worth living". His idea is that I need to change that and think about what the alternatives would be.... ...so, fine "It's not hopeless, it's going to take while but it will get better"...BUT... I can say that until I'm blue in the face! It doesn't mean I believe it! I can't see how thinking about alternative ways of thinking is going to help!!! When I explained that I don't believe the new thoughts when I try and think them...he said "I know you don't, I don't expect you to at the moment but you will with practise". ARGH, what is it I am supposed to practise if it doesn't work!!! HELP, am I missing something here!?I know he cares but it feels like he just didn't get it today. It was only meant to be a 1/2 hr appointment and I was in there for over an hour. Although I think that's because of my thinking at the time...it's possible he didn't want me to leave suicidal.I don't know how this is going to work if I can't do what he's asking me to! :( x-Bliss-x
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