Confused
I'm feeling so confused about myself at the moment. Confused about emotions, why I have them, why they are so strong and what I can do to cope with them.Over the past week I've thought about self harming a lot and I've come close. I don't know where all these emotions and thoughts are coming from. I could understand it better if we'd got somewhere in therapy, but I don't really think we have.My therapist said that now they've taken my anorexia away from me, more emotions are going to come up. But I don't get it. Why should more come up than I was getting BEFORE then anorexia? Where have all these other thought patterns come from? I never used to think about self harm in this way. It was purely a last resort when things got overwhelming. Now I find myself thinking about it all the time. I feel like it would make me feel better if it was a regular thing.What the hell is going on with me!? I feel like I'm losing it! Going mad! I'm so confused :(x-Bliss-x
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