Angry
This is just a quick entry cause I'm too bloody angry to write more.This morning I weighed myself, as usual and once again despite eating more again yesterday I have lost weight. I'm not dealing with this very well. Half of me was really excited but the other half knows that if this carries on I'll end up being admitted into a hospital before I can get into the special unit.I tried to talk about it with my Mum as I'm going to see my pdoc on Monday. He is bound to ask me if I've lost more weight. I've lost another 2 pound so far since Monday when I saw him last. I'm worried he's going to freak and try and send me into a different hospital.I'm trying so hard with eating the amount I am at the moment and I even mentioned maybe adding something small for my lunch to my Mum. She didn't give a yes or no answer. So when lunchtime came, I asked what I should do about lunch. She just sighed and said "it's up to you" like she couldn't give a shit. What did she think I was going to say!? Oh I'll just go make myself a sandwich then shall I! Of course not. All I wanted was a bit of support but what is the fucking point if my Mum couldn't care or less whether I ate or not.Fuck it...
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