Waiting...
I had a horrible night last night. My calorie intake had gone up again and everything just overwhelmed me. I was just so tearful and yet really angry too. I rarely get angry and I couldn't really put my finger on why it was exactly.Today I'm just fiddling around on my laptop again, think I might play Sims in a minute to keep me occupied. I don't have the energy or patience at the moment to do anything else.I'm waiting to hear from my pdoc today. Not sure when he's going to phone. I think his consults started at 10am and it's just gone 10 now so it's probably going to be the afternoon. Besides he might have a few phonecalls to make anyway. It's just frustrating when you have to wait and your not sure what's going on. It's not even like I'm waiting for a date to be admitted. We don't even know if the NHS are going to agree to fund it yet. If they don't, it means I might have to wait till April. I know it's the middle of March now but it seems such a long way away and every day it's just dragging so much.Goal UpdateI'm still maintaining at around 6 stone 3 which in theory...is good. But last night the thoughts started again and the fact that I'm not losing weight is getting to me now. I know I've got to try and maintain on my own to avoid being admitted into a normal hospital. Especially with the NHS hospitals around here.Still feeling a bit dizzy and out of it but I'm just taking things slowly...it's all I can do.
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