Tuesday 15th Jan1:15pm - Mood: DrainedSpending the day doing things on my bed. Really tired today, think it's the Lamotrigine increase. I went back to sleep this morning, could hardly wake up. Going to get my puzzle out once I've checked my messages. Later I might do some cross-stitch again.10:00pm - Mood: Slightly Pissed OffThe afternoon and evening has been OK. Not in a particularly good mood. Watched the last Wire In The Blood tonight. Hope the next series comes out on DVD soon.My book 'Clean Up Your Diet' came today. Of course Mum grabbed it and within 5 seconds for half a dozen things that effect her. I wont bother going into details.11:00pm - Mood: Really PISSED OFFI don't have control over ANYTHING anymore!!! I'm now being told to go to bed! I'm 20 yrs old for god's sake!I can't take this anymore. I don't have a life...it's everyone else's. I don't have control of where I go, when, what I do, when I sleep, what I say...let alone my moods and emotions. Is anything mine!? Does any part of me, actually belong souley to ME? I'm just going to explode one day, I'm so sick of it all!
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