If I'd have been writing this entry this afternoon it would have been a very different story. I felt really good earlier, better than yesterday and the day before. And now I feel awful again. I've just taken my meds so I can fall asleep as soon as possible. I have a pounding headache and the self harm urges are really strong. I just want to go to sleep and let it all drift away. I can feel them starting to kick in now so I'll be quick.I'm seeing my pdoc again tomorrow so I'll update again tomorrow in my journal as I think we're going to change my mood stabilizer to Lamictal. Ah...I can't look at this bright screen any longer it's making my eyes go funny...either that or I'm going a bit funny....all I know is I don't feel right.Good night everyone,x-Bliss-x
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Slow down and take it a minute at a time if you need to. Just acknowledge how you are feeling and encourage yourself to not act on the urges. Try to occupy your time doing something even if it is sleeping. I know hard it is when you get those feelings. Keep me posted on the med issue.
Hugs,
Karin
Have a good nights rest and a good pdoc appt. Let us know how it goes and how you are feeling.
-michelle